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Tuesday, 28 June 2011

In which I whine a bit

This morning I'm having my coffee with a stilted look of calm.  Later this morning, I'm having my biannual mammogram, and although I know it only hurts for a while, I'm feeling unusually apprehensive.

This only has to do with temporary discomfort, not concern about results, and at my age, I've been through it about 20 times, but this is a strange year for me, and while I'm usually stoic and unbothered about the body, I just can't work up any enthusiasm for this procedure today. 

Multiply my lack of enthusiasm by my horrible guilt for feeling this way when I am so lucky in my good health and you'll see why I need another cup of coffee, and why double cream is definitely going to be part of it.


  1. It's okay! I'm always a bit nervous about my annual mammogram as my mother is a breast cancer survivor. However, I remind myself that she is a survivor (with breasts intact) because they found it early. Still, until the pink envelope arrives in the mail, I worry. I think most of us are the same way.

  2. Ouch. We'll be heading into Kanata to take in a movie. If we ever get off our chairs and away from our portable electronic devices that is.

  3. I feel the same way on my mammogram day. I might even need triple cream to calm me down.

  4. just reminded me that mine is comin up in aug. ughh!!! at least yrs. is behind u now.

  5. I can't even begin to tell you how anxious I am to have the mammograms and how I dread it. But, having had BC twice, I guess it's natural. All I know is that mammos are part of why I am still here. I feel more fragile lately, too, however, and try not to think of the other shoe dropping. I guess that's natural, too, even though I know better.