Today, I just poured a glass of wine, ate three 2-bite brownies and decided to just get on with it.
I haven't been myself since last November, and I am now getting to be in a much better place, but having been so depressed, and so uncaring about being depressed, meant that all my energies had to go into just bothering to take care of the basics for myself and family. Friends and family and music and babies helped. Clear thinking about personal priorities, which kicked in after Christmas, also helped.
I am now back to Pollyanna. You may or may not think that's a good thing.
I am also down to about 10 emails a day, 4 of which come from the CBC. That's disconcerting, yet liberating and I think I get points for liberating, so I'll stick with it. With so few emails, I have actually been able to explore Youtube videos, especially the self-published music ones, of which there are so many, and so many good ones. The downside to that of course, is that I didn't bookmark any of them, and I can't remember their names. Still I can remember loving them, and taking joy in finding them. Maybe I can do it again.
Today is Sarah's birthday. She's away in Manitoba, but in our thoughts...here are some good ones from another post